I can’t believe it has been over a month since I last updated here! I can’t believe it has been that long since I decided to do my charity event.
So, the planning has happened. Tickets are on sale and I have sold a number of raffle tickets. Things are moving along nicely. Rehearsals are happening for the plays and I am generally pleased with how things are going.
It has been a lot harder emotionally than I thought. Every time we rehearse, it is like reliving the pain all over again. And I don’t know if I am strong enough to do this.
Everyone says it is an amazing thing I am doing and they are so proud but I feel anything but proud or strong.
I don’t know that I can take the emotional toll it is putting on me but I have too. I started this rollercoaster and I can’t get off it now.
That being said, even if I knew how hard it was going to be, I don’t know that I would change things.
I guess I just wanted to acknowledge how hard this was for me. And it is hard to admit that it is hard.