Raisine Awareness – Continued

I can’t believe it has been over a month since I last updated here!  I can’t believe it has been that long since I decided to do my charity event.

So, the planning has happened.  Tickets are on sale and I have sold a number of raffle tickets.  Things are moving along nicely.  Rehearsals are happening for the plays and I am generally pleased with how things are going.

But….

It has been a lot harder emotionally than I thought.  Every time we rehearse, it is like reliving the pain all over again.  And I don’t know if I am strong enough to do this.

Everyone says it is an amazing thing I am doing and they are so proud but I feel anything but proud or strong.

I don’t know that I can take the emotional toll it is putting on me but I have too.  I started this rollercoaster and I can’t get off it now.

That being said, even if I knew how hard it was going to be, I don’t know that I would change things.

I guess I just wanted to acknowledge how hard this was for me.  And it is hard to admit that it is hard.

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